29th July

Weigh In 142.9

Totays Intake was/will be:
Breakfast: Same as yesterday(I have the same every day) 132cals
Lunch: 110g reduced salt/sugar baked beans 77cals, 15g light dairylea 22cals, 1 bite of choc cake 20cals
Snack: options hot choc 40cals
Dinner: 4 egg white omlette 63cals, 5 one cal spray 5cals, 1 beef tomato 22cals
Pudding: 3 mikado milk choc sticks 33cals
Snack options hot choc 40cals

TOTAL 454 calories (36g protein 32%)

Lv FadingSecret
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Our family was all tightly knit, my brother was born when I was six, I didn’t really understand why it was happening, and how I was supposed to be happy about having a brother. I lied. ‘Of course it will be great to have a little brother.’ I knew in the pit of my stomach it was not going to be great. My mother and father seemed happy, but what was happiness. This was the year my unhappiness began. When my brother Curtis was born in April 1995, I was being carted between family members and family friends. My mother and her son where the most important thing. This was organised, not a mistake, unlike me. There was happy pictures, baby albums, a place for him to sleep. It was all organised, unlike me. I was in the way. He was dressed up in outfits that were brought. I was never allowed new things. I suppose I felt second best, I know my parents didn’t feel that, I used to be a stroppy little girl and scream and shout ‘you don’t love me’ at my parents. It must’ve been difficult to love me through the years.

28th July

Hiya

Well this is my first blog, the previous two blogs are part of a book im start to write, grey is for book writing and pink/red is for everyday writting :)
Today I have consumed the following or will do:

 Breakfast: 1 eggwhite, 22g porridge, 50g skimmed milk, 5g choco crunch and vitamins(132cals)
Lunch: 3egg whites and 60g tuna in brine (118cals)
Snack: Options belgian hot choc (40cals)
Dinner: WW chicken soup (98cals)
Pudding: 3 milk choc mikado sticks (33cals)
Snack: Options Belgian hot choc (40cals)

TOTAL 461calories (44g protein 38% wooo)

I'm trying to eat as much protein as possible :)

Lv FadingSecret
Xx

I was such a fragile girl, I was reasonably tall for a girl of my age, and rather slim for my age too. My mother was slim when she was younger I was told. This is how it was suppose to be. The children in the playground would go around in groups knowing who their friends were and who was not, I had no-one. I desperately tried, they thought I was weird and obviously didn’t deserve their friendship. Teachers and parents took pity on me. I was a pale tall slim young girl, with gloomy brown straight hair, I was always described as Wednesday from the Film and Series Addams Family, in exams I always did well, but never the best. I was never the best at anything.

Why should I take care of my health? What is health? A good state of wellbeing? I feel entirely well within my being. Me and Ana get on perfectly fine. Maybe not perfectly, but just fine. We have ours ups and downs like any relationship. Let me tell you about our relationship, how we met and our journey together.